I suddenly feel depressed!
but my depression situations are getting better...cuz I know the cause of them!
people are getting smarter... chances are being taken ...
I can't compete !
I don't want to!
I have to act... I have to do something!
I'm under pressure..I'm afraid to explode... I'm weak... and I'm afraid of my reaction...my self destructive behavior!
I'm having a summer training in the core of my major...Thanks to Allah I'm so happy about it ... cuz i've been longing for this since the begging of the year... but I'm so worried at the same time...
I still have 1 year and a half (or maybe 2 years) for graduation but I'm not sure what to do! I've already had training in other fields for the journey of finding myself...but I didn't find anything yet...
I simply start doing things with great enthusiasm but after a while my eagerness starts to fade out and I get bored and sick of what I'm doing! I’m really my own worst enemy >_<
God lead me to the right path,,, and forgive me for my ignorance !
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For whom might be interested ... I will talk Insha'allah about my training experience ... cuz i'm sure some will find it useful =)
